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74 structures including 21 homes burned down. 12,000 homes threatened. 2 firefighters died. $7,671,000 and rising of property damage. fire doubled in size to 85,000 acres overnight, with a total of 105,000 acres.

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I keep on typing and deleting sentences in my blog entries because I just don't know how to write whats on my mind. It's all mixed up and twirled around. I just stare at it, hoping it would just type itself away. but it wont..

I remember couple years ago at CityWalk after I watched a movie, I wanted to sleep over my friends house. my mom wouldn't let me so I just hung up frustrated and all pissy. later my sister called me and said he was in the hospital again. thats why I couldn't stay. I just froze and didn't know what to do. on the ride back to LA, reality came to my senses, making me feel what I had never felt before. evidently, my friends saw what I felt inside on the outside. sometimes, God is unfair. He can just take a life away with a snap. or just make them suffer for a period of time and then take it away. but when that day comes, the regrets we hold inside is going to overflow full of emotions. we're going to blame ourselves for what we didn't do with them. we're going to cry ourselves to sleep and wake up crying. we're going to pray as if we just found God for the first time. we're going to hold onto our memories we had with them. and we're going to wait until we see them again. maybe I don't know the feeling of a love one passing away but I came close to it. twice. yea I did those things: blaming, crying, holding, praying. its evident. and I do not want to have to feel that again any time soon. I don't know what this entry was about. I don't want pity from you. I just want him to see my kids in the future. I want him to walk down the isle with my sister right before she weds her groom. A smile is just what I want. In the end, I got picked up and visited him at the hospital. worried and scared, I didn't know what to do when I saw him. but when I walked in, all was well, he had a smile on. I was just so used to seeing him in pain that I forgot how his smile looked like. I finally slept through the night.

yeah, I came down from retreat with no change of heart. yeah, I came down as the same person I came up to retreat. yeah, I came down with regrets. yeah, I came down to drink, smoke and gamble. so what? I am far from the brainwashed-holy-religious Christian that everyone is turning into these days. I'm not bad mouthing them but I just see it as just a temporary spiritual high. good for them. bad for me.

hopefully this all made sense.
& stay up bro<3 rip

it's just that it's delicate

did anyone see the metoer shower last night? I didn't

I have those dreams where I'm running but something is holding you back really hard like a magnetic force. maybe something in real life is holding me back... NAHT. sounds gay but it's very uncomfortable and silly. but yesterday I was at Costco riding a cool bouncing ball and eating every samples in the store. I was also Iron Man. in my dream. oh and I started watching Lost. the korean guy sucks at korean. he has a good jawline though............ gay. but some of it doesnt really makes sense lulz. of course it doesnt, its TV.




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teach you a lesson

we're two different peas in two different pods.

i just had to

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okokokok before I forget which I always do..

I was in a slave boat doing work which I sucked in so the other slaves and slavemaster threw shit at me so I jumped into the water and swam back to land. My family and friends were at land but suddenly we were attacked by a giant tree. but we ended up trapping it and burning it up. hooray. then I guess the mother giant tree found out and let out a huge roar so we got scared and ran to the car. while in the car, crazy weird campers tried to make us stay there. they attacked us and forced me to stay while the rest of my family left. they attacked me like zombies so I fought back and firefighters (I guess to put out the mutant tree) threw huge metal axes at me. I wasnt able to throw them because they were gigantic. one of them was Ken Jeong. quite funny.

so I dodged them and ended up escaping on a school bus which my little sister (which I dont have) was on. phew. then a crazy ass indian bus driver lady was degrading asians. I got mad since she was asian, etc so I burned her ass right on the spot. I didn't know I had the capability of doing that. then my friend stood up saying asian boys are annoying as fuck blahblah. then I woke up.

that was my dream. in one fucking hour. because I woke up and got up early to go out only to find out I had no ride. /facepalm so I went back to sleep. and woke up again. and now writing it down because I had to share it to someone. I dont know why.

simple starving to be safe. please.

gg canker sores. I fucking hate them. excuse me. I got them in my fucking throat. who gets canker sores in their fucking throat? #$%^&*(?!

but in other news, the emo Ricky from past entries is gone. hopefully.
that is all. w00t.

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good evening, I'm gonna stock my dorm mini fridge with Calpico Strawberry <3

1) I had a pet iguana, couple fish that were later eaten by my turtles, birds, snakes, 4 dogs and frogs. 2) speaking of pets, my pet peeves: chewing loudly, dirty/sticky hands, kids/people without manners. 3) when I was little I fell and had to get stitches on my head. twice. that's why I have a bump on my head. fuck you. 4) turnon: artistic, dances well & cook well 5) I wanted to become a firefighter, policeman, pilot, architect, civil engineer, lego builder, kumdo master (lol), astronaut, SWAT, or a professor. 6) I don't like kimchi that much 7) I like math 8) I don't like hard liquor 9) I had two official girlfriends. the rest are unknown haaaaaaa. 10) I recently found out I have horrible money management. 11) I like building things: legos, models, etc. 12) I'm competitive. 13) turnoff: armpit hair, body odor & the "getalongwithguysmorethangirls" type. 14) call me creep but I like to read other blogs. 15) I become a perfectionist when I do projects, most of the time. 16) My dad found my sidekicklx near the garbage can. 17) My highschool mascot is a unicorn. 18) I used to be obsessed with paintballing & legos. 19) I played volleyball and fucked up my thumb. 20) When I get nervous, I do the current things I do excessively (?). 21) arizona sweet tea and halfmango&halftea <3 22) I learned my lesson not to binge drink 23) I have fast metabolism. 24) I have a patch of hair on both of my knees. 25) I bet you can't guess where my birthmark is.


todolist with my gay friend
1. go to cloud9
2. eat hot cheetos
3. eat popsicles
4. beer pong
5. photoshoot
6. do a duet
7. more #1!
8. more bp!