dibs<3

so uh... I'm just sitting on my bed with my laptop 'cause I can't sleep. I dont even know why..

maybe I think too much about tomorrow (or today night). sigh oh well. my mentality is in a good state. being optimistic really helps, and when all else fails and it comes to that point when it doesn't seem so good, the thought of "there's always a end to the night" is my impetus. it feels hella good at the end of the night. the feeling of just overcoming it and saying "I did it" makes me want to do it again. each week I will find my limit through my sweat that comes through my pores and break it. and do it over again, again, and again.

or maybe it's my roommate's snoring that is making me unable to sleep... I should buy him some nasal spray. no joke. he has five different snoring patterns and I sometimes think he's choking. DAMN IT CHARLES. hehe jk<3

mhm. but winter is cominggg. even though I'm a summer baby, I love the winter. especially at school too. just the sunny and windy weather is nostalgic. I miss high school too: the people, atmosphere, friends, teachers, homeroom, classes, nasty cafeteria food, and dibs<3. I remember they used to sell Subway, Pizza Hut, soda, fresh-baked chocolate chip cookies, and candy. too bad they stop selling it the year after I came into LACES haa.

dear dibs,
I had dibs on you since the beginning of 11th grade. you "might" have noticed that I had dibs on you but fuck it, everyone did lol! even though we met awkwardly, we got a tadd bit closer last year. even though that period we had together may seemed chill for me, it was the worst. he made me do so much shit. I wanted to ditch that period everyday... even though I kinda did. college has made me into a different me. and if I were to have a class with you again, it would be different. I was gay, sorry.

p.s. you were the best date lulzzzzzzz

and you, I don't want it to be awkward. please. you're too much of a good friend to be wasted. :P

tell me why Lil Wayne is a genius.. No Ceilings. cope it.

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I think I have OCD.