changed man

kinda bummed that I can't resize it back to normal. I was foolish back then.
and you were too.

the songs on her radio

it's fucking Christmas again.

where every street is lit up with christmas lights. when the cold wind forces you to buy chapstick (mint flavor). when kost103.5 is on in every car. when you change your pajamas into sweats. when you shop the day before christmas. when you see couples together with winter clothes on. when you take out your winter jacket from the back of the closet. when every candy wrapper is green and red. when the cold air in Los Angeles gives me memories from four odd years ago.

it's fucking Christmas again...

A H

it's the holidays muthafuckaaaaaa


alpha eta class. f2k9. bitchesss.

I hated every minute of training,

but I said, "Don't quit. Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion."

since im too distracted..

^ hmmm the magazine..?

yeeboi

pass me by

http://shinichimaruyama.com/

you have no idea

dibs<3

so uh... I'm just sitting on my bed with my laptop 'cause I can't sleep. I dont even know why..

maybe I think too much about tomorrow (or today night). sigh oh well. my mentality is in a good state. being optimistic really helps, and when all else fails and it comes to that point when it doesn't seem so good, the thought of "there's always a end to the night" is my impetus. it feels hella good at the end of the night. the feeling of just overcoming it and saying "I did it" makes me want to do it again. each week I will find my limit through my sweat that comes through my pores and break it. and do it over again, again, and again.

or maybe it's my roommate's snoring that is making me unable to sleep... I should buy him some nasal spray. no joke. he has five different snoring patterns and I sometimes think he's choking. DAMN IT CHARLES. hehe jk<3

mhm. but winter is cominggg. even though I'm a summer baby, I love the winter. especially at school too. just the sunny and windy weather is nostalgic. I miss high school too: the people, atmosphere, friends, teachers, homeroom, classes, nasty cafeteria food, and dibs<3. I remember they used to sell Subway, Pizza Hut, soda, fresh-baked chocolate chip cookies, and candy. too bad they stop selling it the year after I came into LACES haa.

dear dibs,
I had dibs on you since the beginning of 11th grade. you "might" have noticed that I had dibs on you but fuck it, everyone did lol! even though we met awkwardly, we got a tadd bit closer last year. even though that period we had together may seemed chill for me, it was the worst. he made me do so much shit. I wanted to ditch that period everyday... even though I kinda did. college has made me into a different me. and if I were to have a class with you again, it would be different. I was gay, sorry.

p.s. you were the best date lulzzzzzzz

and you, I don't want it to be awkward. please. you're too much of a good friend to be wasted. :P

tell me why Lil Wayne is a genius.. No Ceilings. cope it.

--edit

I think I have OCD.

half way in... almost

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asian beer!

Michael "Heartthrob" Buble

0% homo

yellow

me and you so crucial babyy

did I ever tell you I wanted to become an astronaut? space is one of the more mysterious things, along with religion and girls. it's just a big, BIG space filled with stars, planets, rocks, gas, and what ever scientific things float out there. since space is never ending with no boundaries and all we see is black, then..... infinity has a color? black? it must be so quiet out there, floating around like bubbles. and I really dont think we're the only ones living in the universe. I saw the family guy episode where Brian and Stewy travel through different universes. they meet themselves in different dimensions with an distinct quality that makes them their selves different in each dimension (if that made any sense). if there are different me's what would my quality, that I have in this dimension, be that makes me different than the other me's? ok I'm getting off topic. but none of that shinaniganz. I guess I get curious often. I shouldve signed up for philosophy earlier, oh well next semester!

hello boston

winter's coming soon, I can feel ittt. it's something about the windy and cold weather that makes me nostalgic. gay, I know but sorry. it just reminds me of New York winter scenes like in John Cusack looking for the book in Serendipity or Will Ferrell singing with Zooey Deschanel in Elf. yes?


so I went to ChinaTown to buy my first piece. I found a perfect cute hybrid one that was like a mini bong. I got on that shit for $10, not bad. but I wanted to devirginize/pop the cherry at Riverside since it will smell up the car on the way back. nonetheless peer pressure engulfed me and made me use it in LA. while trying to clean it (stupid idea), it fell and broke. fml ):
note the cute marijuana leaves on the top..
baby hybrid <3

other than that! college is good. yeeeee. classes are fun and somewhat easy. food isn't that bad. cuties on campus~ hayy gurll. parties often and fun people. I have a paper due on thulsday but sall good.

I'll be the one to tell you that everything's going to be alright

got me lifted, shifted

i woke up with blood stains and skid marks on my shirt. wtf just happened?

concrete jungle where dreams are made of

siccccwidit! blueprint iii cop it.

damn life's good..
just got my license, moving out in a few days, its getting colder, almost done packing, and chipotle in a few minutes!

the only people you need in your life

are the ones that prove they need you in theirs

there comes a time when a boy transforms into a man when he moves out and does not look back

idk I always wanted to say something like that

supreme authority

aint gon tie me down

I had a dream Brock Lesnar wanted to fight me LOLOL. we ended up slap boxing.. and the rest is unknown hhoho.

sept16!

If other people are ignorant of your knowledge

..you have the power.

(ig⋅no⋅rant - adj: lacking in knowledge or training; unlearned: an ignorant man.)
(knowl⋅edge - noun: acquaintance with facts, truths, or principles; general erudition: knowledge of many things)

ignorance is bliss? knowledge is power? knowledge is power.

people say what you don't know won't hurt you. that's why new born babies are considered the purest because they don't know whats good/evil or right/wrong. they just cry, poop and laugh. that's all they do but when you become mature and all grown up you realize whats wrong from right. vice versa. right? you become aware of crime, violence, love, family, etc. and some of them, if not all, sucks. maybe you can force yourself to block all those negative aspects but in your mind it's still in there even if its only a small portion. what can you do? idunno.. fix it? thats why the Nobel (Peace) Prize is given out. lol jk. what if people like Martin Luther King or Ghandi wasn't alive? would we still have a hardcore segregated community among races or gender? maybe. maybe not but thankfully, their knowledge made change to the world. but you say..

what about cancer? would you like to live knowing you have cancer or not knowing?
meh.. it goes both ways I guess. living life with cancer must suck, knowing that you're going to die. so being ignorant about it is good so you can just live life regularly and not worry. but if you don't choose to be in denial then with your knowledge, maybe you can find the cure for cancer and not worry that you're going to die.. from cancer. I don't know, it's debatable?

but when people say "which one's better, ignorance is bliss or knowledge is power", I see it as "which one is better, ignore or conquer". I'd like to conquer. (:

I'll edit/write more later. I want to go to RiteAid to get some drinks.

day late friend

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chocolate cake

i hate your greetings

last cause

I keep on typing and deleting sentences in my blog entries because I just don't know how to write whats on my mind. It's all mixed up and twirled around. I just stare at it, hoping it would just type itself away. but it wont..

I remember couple years ago at CityWalk after I watched a movie, I wanted to sleep over my friends house. my mom wouldn't let me so I just hung up frustrated and all pissy. later my sister called me and said he was in the hospital again. thats why I couldn't stay. I just froze and didn't know what to do. on the ride back to LA, reality came to my senses, making me feel what I had never felt before. evidently, my friends saw what I felt inside on the outside. sometimes, God is unfair. He can just take a life away with a snap. or just make them suffer for a period of time and then take it away. but when that day comes, the regrets we hold inside is going to overflow full of emotions. we're going to blame ourselves for what we didn't do with them. we're going to cry ourselves to sleep and wake up crying. we're going to pray as if we just found God for the first time. we're going to hold onto our memories we had with them. and we're going to wait until we see them again. maybe I don't know the feeling of a love one passing away but I came close to it. twice. yea I did those things: blaming, crying, holding, praying. its evident. and I do not want to have to feel that again any time soon. I don't know what this entry was about. I don't want pity from you. I just want him to see my kids in the future. I want him to walk down the isle with my sister right before she weds her groom. A smile is just what I want. In the end, I got picked up and visited him at the hospital. worried and scared, I didn't know what to do when I saw him. but when I walked in, all was well, he had a smile on. I was just so used to seeing him in pain that I forgot how his smile looked like. I finally slept through the night.

yeah, I came down from retreat with no change of heart. yeah, I came down as the same person I came up to retreat. yeah, I came down with regrets. yeah, I came down to drink, smoke and gamble. so what? I am far from the brainwashed-holy-religious Christian that everyone is turning into these days. I'm not bad mouthing them but I just see it as just a temporary spiritual high. good for them. bad for me.

hopefully this all made sense.
& stay up bro<3 rip

it's just that it's delicate

did anyone see the metoer shower last night? I didn't

I have those dreams where I'm running but something is holding you back really hard like a magnetic force. maybe something in real life is holding me back... NAHT. sounds gay but it's very uncomfortable and silly. but yesterday I was at Costco riding a cool bouncing ball and eating every samples in the store. I was also Iron Man. in my dream. oh and I started watching Lost. the korean guy sucks at korean. he has a good jawline though............ gay. but some of it doesnt really makes sense lulz. of course it doesnt, its TV.




(:

teach you a lesson

we're two different peas in two different pods.

i just had to

por ti valore

okokokok before I forget which I always do..

I was in a slave boat doing work which I sucked in so the other slaves and slavemaster threw shit at me so I jumped into the water and swam back to land. My family and friends were at land but suddenly we were attacked by a giant tree. but we ended up trapping it and burning it up. hooray. then I guess the mother giant tree found out and let out a huge roar so we got scared and ran to the car. while in the car, crazy weird campers tried to make us stay there. they attacked us and forced me to stay while the rest of my family left. they attacked me like zombies so I fought back and firefighters (I guess to put out the mutant tree) threw huge metal axes at me. I wasnt able to throw them because they were gigantic. one of them was Ken Jeong. quite funny.

so I dodged them and ended up escaping on a school bus which my little sister (which I dont have) was on. phew. then a crazy ass indian bus driver lady was degrading asians. I got mad since she was asian, etc so I burned her ass right on the spot. I didn't know I had the capability of doing that. then my friend stood up saying asian boys are annoying as fuck blahblah. then I woke up.

that was my dream. in one fucking hour. because I woke up and got up early to go out only to find out I had no ride. /facepalm so I went back to sleep. and woke up again. and now writing it down because I had to share it to someone. I dont know why.

simple starving to be safe. please.

gg canker sores. I fucking hate them. excuse me. I got them in my fucking throat. who gets canker sores in their fucking throat? #$%^&*(?!

but in other news, the emo Ricky from past entries is gone. hopefully.
that is all. w00t.

25

good evening, I'm gonna stock my dorm mini fridge with Calpico Strawberry <3

1) I had a pet iguana, couple fish that were later eaten by my turtles, birds, snakes, 4 dogs and frogs. 2) speaking of pets, my pet peeves: chewing loudly, dirty/sticky hands, kids/people without manners. 3) when I was little I fell and had to get stitches on my head. twice. that's why I have a bump on my head. fuck you. 4) turnon: artistic, dances well & cook well 5) I wanted to become a firefighter, policeman, pilot, architect, civil engineer, lego builder, kumdo master (lol), astronaut, SWAT, or a professor. 6) I don't like kimchi that much 7) I like math 8) I don't like hard liquor 9) I had two official girlfriends. the rest are unknown haaaaaaa. 10) I recently found out I have horrible money management. 11) I like building things: legos, models, etc. 12) I'm competitive. 13) turnoff: armpit hair, body odor & the "getalongwithguysmorethangirls" type. 14) call me creep but I like to read other blogs. 15) I become a perfectionist when I do projects, most of the time. 16) My dad found my sidekicklx near the garbage can. 17) My highschool mascot is a unicorn. 18) I used to be obsessed with paintballing & legos. 19) I played volleyball and fucked up my thumb. 20) When I get nervous, I do the current things I do excessively (?). 21) arizona sweet tea and halfmango&halftea <3 22) I learned my lesson not to binge drink 23) I have fast metabolism. 24) I have a patch of hair on both of my knees. 25) I bet you can't guess where my birthmark is.


todolist with my gay friend
1. go to cloud9
2. eat hot cheetos
3. eat popsicles
4. beer pong
5. photoshoot
6. do a duet
7. more #1!
8. more bp!

fake thug, no love

as corny as it sounds, you're like kryptonite to me.
seriously. but superman usually tries to avoid it, unlike me

got summer hatin' on me cause I'm hotter than the sun

got spring hatin' on me cause I'm never sprung

got winter hatin' on me cause im colder than yall

taken all by me!

brotherhood, money, girls, fame. what more can u ask for in a tv series?

wine red

If everything happens for a reason, I have yet to see what it is.

got my '64 raised and my Eazy-E shades

it's just another day in cali caliiiiiii


it's the goddamn same routine. boy meets girl. boy falls for girl. quickly. girl plays along. girl bails out. wtf? is it me? am i doing something wrong for the past X amount of relationships i had? i would have known if i did something wrong for X times but seriously. i could've correct what i've done wrong. and i did. and still. still. still still still the same game plan. juking all the guys, objects, robots or whatever you want to call us when it justtt seems to get serious.

fact: surpisingly, guys have feelings too yknow.. just to put it out there.

so heres my theory/philosophy/view/whateveryouwanttocallit on life: bibically, the first sin? eve. eating the goddamn forbidden fruit. banishing her AND adam from the so-called "Garden of Eden". so.. in other words, bibically(again) the root of all evil? women. or so what i interpret and the "bible" says. and religion? oh noes..

okokok. enough of my rants. but there you go, my occasional emo entry.



sometimes, i hate pc's. but chchchcheck it out. underground hiphop has been a ear candy for me these days. it's the rhythm, flow, and beat that's different from mainstream hiphop. and peak at my new background. i found it on bobbys blog/website.

and speaking of skulls, reading bobby's, johnny's, mr44's, and friend's blogs make me want to update more. butttttttt i need to buy a new camera. i<3blogs


keepin' it ol school

i need to find myself some new hobbies.. besides the pussyhungrylife. justkidding! maybe ill revive some old hobbies of mines in college?

blue panties

im waiting for this dumb trick to get on oovoo because this dumb trick is showering. so while i wait, i shall keep myself busy with my blog.

john mayer is a genius lyricist and guitarist.

usually movies disappoint me like xmen origins, slumdog, etc (twilight was horrible) but transformers 2 delivered what i expected. kind of. action was intense. megan fox was gorgeous. isabel lucas is one hawt robot. bad glare scenes (again). and useless twin robots.

but.....



(theres always a but) the writers/directors shouldve introduced the new autobots/decepticons more. they just came out of nowhere. and they barely talked. lame. i didnt like the "blood" and "tears" from the bots too. weird. but then again.. megan fox was in it. bad acting though. and optimus shouldve just died. completely. resurrection is fail in movies. but.. another sequel? coolbeans

7.5/10




you have bad habits. but it's cute.


and to the dumb trick i mentioned earlier in this entry, im sensitive about my eyebrows. thanks.

my best wishes

goes out to you.

i went camping this week at sequoia. the drive was longer than i thought. but fortunately my eaglescout skills came in handy..... yea. i shouldve brought my camera though. the drive up to campsite was pretty. unhomo. i saw two squirrels getting down/play fighting. we had no gas stoves. and no wood. so we took some from our neighboring campers. we gossiped about girls too. if you know me and are reading this, we probably talked about you (: i appreciated gum and music more. especially underground. i tried to get used to beer but it was failure. i still think its bitter.

michael jackson passed away yesterday. i liked his older songs when he was young. jacksonfive. hes also a great lyricist.

good song covered by a good artist.

59 fucking feet. goddamn asians.

i fall quickly but get out too slowly.

hello, kitty!

have you ever found a song that you could really relate to?
i found it.

yesterday, i had the best feeling because i realized i didn't have school the next day. summer fun. but i did start playing wow again. there goes my fucking summer.. speaking of jobs, i need a job. doesn't everyone? but i got bank (:



i'm anticipating for the first week of summer: beerpong, beerpong, cloud9, camping, beerpong!

now what to do with all my graduation money............

allo governa!

ok so my previous blog was pointless/apathetic/judgmental. so i exterminated it. ooh the big words i must use!

nonetheless, i am fucking coolbeans with, or without you.
but mostly with you ):
story of my life. qq. /facepalm

look at me, i sound like some emo-tep little bitch. but on a more serious note,




yezzur. and they deserve it. AND i passed calculus! woo. i think blogs are boring without pictures. without it, it'll just be a huge list of words that'll just make the eye sore. it needs something to rest upon(?idunno). i've been reading other blogs too. bobbyhund, ff. i wish my life was as interesting as theirs. werd.


randolph permejo - stupid
ryan bandong - unstoppable
goddamn flipinos! hypebeast-talented.

allo jezzika bark!

best i ever

allo blog. the past couple weeks was very slow. i think the last weeks of highschool is gonna be more slow. im pretty damn anxious about graduation and summer though. yay 18! strip clubs, gambling, scratchers, stog slangin(?). haaa jokes. after summer is college. people say that when you room with a friend, its make or break. but i say, fuck you! i think its gon be fun rooming with a friend. even though that fucker eats so loud. pet peeve. we've decided that this is going to be our most frequent line we use in the room: "lets hug it out bitch" DOYEWGETITTTT

first fish of the night babyy

couple of friends and i went to redondo to fish. it was packed with mexicans, fishing for their dinner. beansoup? but it was fun and smelly. we caught 6 in total and some fuckers next to us got like 10. i want to go fishing now.




i predict Lakers in 6 babyyyyyyyy

elliott yamin - good outweigh the bad

i could get used to this

i went out side my backyard to let my dog piss and i realized how the fucking moon is so bright. it looks like a light bulb but its like giant rock mirror that reflects the sun's light. how can a rock reflect so much light? without it everything will be pitch black and whatnot. i should've paid more attention in physics. i want to go to space. well other than me sounding like a nerd/douche talking about moons and stars, i might apply to pacific theaters. i dont know how that'll work. and wtf? prom's soon..

make me honest

here's my week in short, useless sentences:

i like trance. i've been playing my guitar these days. i'm gonna miss KIWIN'S. xmen was a disappointment. changeling and seven pounds was hella good. ap calculus ftl. school's very slow. i want some half cabs. lets make a jerkin video. i've grown feelings. i haven't played worldofwarcraft in a week :o



i think i..

hey taxi driver

i live in the valleys so that means its either 10 degrees hotter or cooler than LA.
which is horrible. if its cold in LA, its colder here. if its hot in la, it hotter. GG.
kiwins dcon was last weekend. last year's was better imo. maybe it's because i didn't remember the horrible 4 hour meeting sessions last year. i need a ipod. i cannot wait for college. even though its my last choice ): hopefully its gonna be fuuuuuuuun. rside represent?................lawl. school's getting more boring. i'm tired of my sidekick. i want a black berry. but sidekick 3g is coming out. kewlz. maybe its the whole crackberry crave. everyone's getting a blackberry. its like the new "thing". couple months ago the new thing was webcamming. then it turned into SLR's. then blogspot. then its jerkin'. now its blackberrys! weird.











werd.
im following the trend. wtfm8.
i want to start my old hobbies. i dont know why. i have the urge to take amateur/noobish photos. i want to paintball again.



and my friend charles helped me with the list of trends.
i thank you.

pandora.com

i am a world of warcraft fiend

arbitrary

in the end,
i am the emotionless robot you think i am.



yes i do look like a complete fag and
yes i did meet mr gabe bondoc

robots

there you go again, friendly as you can be, towards the motionless beings you think we are. to you, we're just play dolls. just as things come to close, we're supposed to disappear as if nothing had happen because we were never promised anything. right? maybe its just that we're tired of the same gig. or maybe its just me. but there you go again, friendly as you are.

i'm only human

hi blog. it's been a while since I've written in here. I bet no one even visits this green shit of mine. oh well. anyways, I hate calculus. zomgwtfm8? I thought math was pretty fun last year trig but until now, I fucking dread going to fifth period. geezsus christ. but hey! at least I'm passing it. I've been studying calculus these days. I want to pass the exam......... :dodgy: other than that, school's boring. extremely boring. especially when awaken(?) in ap gov. cot damn no wonder i sleep all the time there. and lunch is boring. since all the seniors left me this year. i just quietly eat lunch. lawlicups. to sum it up, school's a drag. yay for college.

volleyball season is coming up. and we don't even have a coach. huh? yea it's pretty sad. and I've been playing world of warcraft these days. zomg. but I'm getting less addicted as I level up........ NOT. i have to abuse my firstmonthforfree plan. yezzur.

I do miss photography though I did suck at it. someone needs to teach me. and since I haven't touched my camera in ages, I'll just post up some old pictures